I use to let my emotions run wild, then I took control
As I’m typing this the song “Wild Thoughts” by DJ Khaled featuring Rihanna and Bryson Tiller is playing over and over in my head, don’t judge me.
So I myself felt as if 2020 was going to be an amazing year, 2019 was on that foolishness and I was so pumped to start a fresh new year.
Little did the world know what was to come, whew chile!
This year has been a really big bag of emotions for me, granted I have and am so thankful for many things. I hardly ever complain, plus complaining never helps anyways.
I mean I’m working from home, I gained clarity in my business, I rebranded and relaunched and more.
This year hasn’t been all bad. BUT it seems October is doing a number on ya girl’s emotions, no lie.
I’ve been in a very self reflective stage and I’m literally all over the place, granted I have these moments usually before my birthday, but this is new and one I can’t shake. I’m having thoughts such as “omg I’m behind in life and I’m getting old.” Craziness!
But it’s more triggering because I’m not where I want to be but I see so many people walking in the light I want to stand in.
Whew Chile! A word!
Question- Are you living a life you enjoy and that brings you happiness?
This is a question my therapist asked me, but most importantly she challenged me to write out every area of my life and how I see it. No limits or logic, just my wild vision and dreams.
It’s so funny how as children we feel so limitless and fearless but as we get older life starts to make us feel as if we aren’t capable of dreaming big or having our hearts desires. But that is so not true.
The doubt, unbelief and fear is a lie. I told a client this week, being positive and evolving is a full-time job. Even for me!
What do I do when my thoughts don’t line up with my beliefs?
1. I acknowledge how I feel, I don’t try to tell myself I’m not feeling what I feel. It’s real and I’m feeling it.
2. I affirm myself! This is where being your own hype woman comes in. I don’t allow the negativity to take over, I speak positively, confidently and boldly.
3. I take a hot shower, go outside in the sun or have some coffee or tea. Something that makes me feel good.
4. REPEAT! It’s not always a one and done type of thing, sometimes it’s all day. So commit and don’t give up.
In the past I would fight my thoughts with thoughts or let my feelings run wild.
But the more and more I grow in self love and caring for myself, I’ve come to realize that I am in control. I have the power to change my mood and redirect my thoughts.
Guess what? You have the same power.
It’s so funny how we look at everyone’s highlight reel on social media, not realizing that we have the same capability to activate our blessings and success.
You can still finish this year strong, I encourage you to write out a vision for the remaining of 2020 and also being working on 2021.
Your feelings and emotions don’t control you, you control them. So stand tall and be the powerful woman you are.
Love,
Michelle Jo